Fish

I went to the pet store yesterday or maybe the day before to go buy fish.
I bought three goldfish. I named them Cassidy Preston and Taytum.

I really really loved the fish. Im not joking. It's like they were mine...i was like their mom.

i got home from a party and their dead. Preston is the only living one. And your probably laughing right now, but im definitly not.

I was really attached to those things. I started crying uncontrolably. i was like shaking and hypervenalating.

The image of my two pet fish floating with thir bodies all bent weird won't get out of my mind.

I'll put pictures on later.

Thankfully my mother was kind enough to clean the bowl all up.

If this last fish dies...i will die.

My Lovely Day :D

This is basically me and Natalie's day. We had a sleep over last night. We watched Titanic but it got to sad so we turned it off and watched Wildn out. THEN we went and got Lucky charms, olives, and chocolate milk at 3 in the morning. Then we went to bed.

Then we woke up and ate Einstein bagels. Then We came to my house and did my laundry. Then we basically did nothing all day. hahah we just got done with the dishes.

Now we're taking lame a pictures.

You know what BLOWS?

Not having eyelashes.

actually, i wish that i had no eyelashes rather then just a chunk missing. It's pretty embarassing. Most people don't notice until like 5 minutes into the conversation then they just stop talkingand look at me. UHHHHHHHHHHHHH. GAY GAY GAY.

Cross Country

Just in case anybody wants to know, which I'm sure you don't....I'm not doing volleyball next year! AT all! its' basically not worth it to me..Instead I'm doing cross country!

It's gonna be super hard but i think i can do it. And i think I'm gonna get a great bod hahahaha my friend Travis who already does cross country says he will run with me now and during summer and help me get in shape. I'm just sorta nervous about going running with him because he's like in good shape and I'm well...not. haha

Anywho I'm at my BFF Natalie's house and her dads about to bring us bagels soo PEACE IT!
Have a wonderful memorial day!

UpDaTe!

Well really, there's nothing to update...Basically I'm trying to decide to play volleyball for harbor or centennial...

It's one of the toughest decisions i have to make. Cent. is like my home school. I"m not even going to school there and i have an oppertunity to be a part of it. But i don't actually know if i will be a part of it because i may never get to play.

If i played for harbor i would definitly get the chance to play. and yeah, we may not be the best team, but i'd still be playing.

When it comes down to it, i love playing volleyball, not watching it.

Mothers Day

Since it's mother's day, i thought it would be appropriate to write about my amazing mom. I should tell her more, but sometimes i forget to remind her what a great person she is. and i think the easiest way to express my gratitude is making a list :}

1. She puts up with my sarcasm day after day.

2. When it seems my common sense has vanished, she gives me hers.

3. She could not be more patient with me.

4. She helps me make good decisions.

5. She supports what i do and the decisions i make.

6. She trusts me.

7. She's raised me to know whats right and what's wrong.

8. It's because of her voice in my head constantly i don't smoke or drink or act like a ho.

9. My mom keeps me in check.

10. i can talk to her about anything in the world.

11. She never pressures me to do anything i don't want to do.

12. She's taught me to be independent.

13. most girls don't like their mothers at this age, but mine is my bestfriend.

14. We can laugh together.

15. She's amazing with kids.

16. She can comfort anyone who needs it.

17. She's a great singer.

18. She is constantly trying to make me happy by doing nice things for me.

19. She will kick and boy, mom, or girls trash if there bad to me.

20. She listens to me ramble about stuff.

21. She puts up with my ridiculous mood swings.

22. When i'm sick she makes me better.

23. She prays for me.

24. She's the kind of mother that will lay by me all night singing softly until i sleep.

25. She knows everything.

26. she lets me stay home from school to finish projects.

27. She takes me out to lunch without my sisters so we can just talk.

28. She keeps my secrets.

29. She lifts me up when I'm down.

30. She has unconditional love for me. I know that no matter how much i screw up she will always love me and will be on my side. I knot this because she tells me.

31. And, she tells me she loves me everyday.

32. I can't go two days without her.

33. She knows when something is wrong with me and can cheer me up.

I couldn't ask for a better mom. I don't know how I'm suppose to repay her for all that she does either. Honestly, she's taught me everything i know. From how to tie my shoes to life's biggest lessons. I'm getting older now and my biggest fear is falling away from my mom like i see so many other teens have. I would be lost without my mother and can't imagine life without her.

Cassidy does not cook

I friggen hate cooking. With a passion. Cooking just makes me realize how much common sense i really don't have.

For school we're doing this writers workshop and you get to like pick a project to independently work on. I chose a recipe. Ha. I knew i shouldn't of because i can't cook; but i figured, how hard can making chocolate chip cookies really be. Answer: REALLY MOTHER EFFING HARD.

the first incident was this: the recipe said 4 table salt. Meaning, 4 table spoons OF salt. I thought it meant table salt as in salt you eat a the table. So i asked my mom i was like this stupid recipe don't say what you measure the salt with. Her and Carley started laughing and i knew right then that it wasn't salt you put on the table.

Then i was nearly done when i freaking lost count of how much cups of flour i put in so i had to add one more and mix it by hand. UGH! then i tried to mix it with the bosh but the lid wasn't on all the way so it freaked out and flour went everywhere.

what a terrible, terrible experience.